by Taiwo
(Ibadan, Nigeria)
Question:
I am 53 and one thing I can immediately tell you is my frustration with life. I have read so many books and listen to many audio books as well, as a matter of fact I've read four of Eckhart Tolle's books, I've done the Sedona Method course among many other things, I've tried meditation and mindfulness but still I'm not free of both psychological and physical pains, I often relapse into depression. Life for me is so frustrating! I suffer insomnia, occasionally when I manage some sleep it is not always restful but filled with nightmares.
I followed your advice to feel the inner body, sometimes it seems I am getting it but most of the time I don't feel anything. The worse feeling is my feeling of helplessness, should I say stuckness, I can't seems to get out of my mind, I feel stuck in there and with absolutely no peace of mind. My head spins and my neck aches often!
Response:
Hello.
Ok, is it possible to give it all up then? To give up escape, to entertain the possibility that it is completely inescapable, that there is no other possible moment or experience than what is currently arising?
This will lead to despair if there is still a wish for it all to be different, as if it is possible to escape it all and yet this freedom is for some reason not being experienced.
However, if it is seen that the present moment is naturally inescapable, that you can't possibly find your way out of Now, then the struggle against it all may diminish, not as a technique to feel better, but out of simply no longer believing that you as an entity can escape certain sensations and movements.
There is no freedom for the "me". When the struggle to escape this moment is seen as ridiculous, or futile, the sensation of the suffering "me", the belief in time, diminishes.
You may feel stuck if you are trying to get somewhere, to make experience different. If this desire for progression in time is no longer there, then what is the stuckness about?
What you describe is not bad at all. Sometimes this kind of helpless feeling is absolutely essential for the personal mind to fall back into the greater existence, or Life, or God. It reminds me of a Nisargadatta Maharaj quote:
"By all means do feel lost! As long as you feel competent and confident, reality is beyond your reach."
Don't bear the burden yourself. None of this is for the personal mind. Give it all back to existence itself.
If you feel to ask more, you can do so in the comments below.
Adam
Comments for I Feel Stuck!
(from previous website)
May 20, 2015
I FEEL STUCK
by: Taiwo
Thank you Adam, thank you.
Jun 02, 2015
Taiwo
by: Adam - InnerPeaceNow.com
Sure, you're welcome.
Adam
Jul 22, 2015
who gives up?
by: Raj
Adam, you wrote:
There is no freedom for the "me". When the struggle to escape this moment is seen as ridiculous, or futile, the sensation of the suffering "me", the belief in time, diminishes.
At certain level, I see what you mean, but can we really ever give up hope? I, as in ego, runs its courses and continues to fight to find a better way, a better solution. The war goes on and hope/expectation/anticipation keeps it going. That is the role of ego/mind?