If self-enquiry happens, it may do spontaneously, let it be genuine, without trying to get to a point of awareness or freedom or whatever. It is best if it is spontaneous and genuine - “what am I at the deepest level?”. I don’t want to give you too many words because the mind has created a new mess out of it, which is not your fault or something to be blamed for, but it has obviously, as you say, taken it all conceptually...