"I feel tremendous amounts of helplessness, hopelessness, deep despair, inner core pain, reliving traumatic memories, suffocating in emotional turmoil, dread the panic and fear I feel on a daily basis..."
How do I deal with or cope with intense suicidal feelings? They frighten me so much and I don't think my family can take any more of me calling them during the night when the feelings get so intense. I don't know what to do. Can you help me?"