"Hey Adam, I am more aware of my own body than I ever was before. However, it somehow scares me. I discover unpleasantness that I did not even know existed. For example, as I come to the present, I feel pain and I hear this noise in my head (a tinnitus) ... It almost feels as if I am creating all this myself, maybe by becoming aware but being scared/resistant to what is. Is that possible? I am somehow disappointed in myself when I realise that I am not accepting the unpleasant sensations..."
Love your site and your blog very much.
I want to ask you a question. I have been meditating for 35 years now so I am able to "stand apart" and watch my thoughts and feelings happen without attaching the self to them. I just feel them without resistance and let them pass. My doubt is about what happens after that.
Well, what is a negative body image? A thought. It is not your body, it is a thought ABOUT the body that is believed, perhaps supported by other humans and then regarded as real.
It is likely that if you had not grown up in this particular society, you would not have any kind of negative body image in your mind. It is a kind of programming, a kind of conditioning to judge certain shapes as bad and others as good.
Love your books and online meditations. They have helped me accept the anxiety or "feeling" as I now call it as its easier to accept that way.
One question I have and I think I already know the answer is. I am in a job I dislike, the job itself is fine but it's a desk job and feels wrong to be sitting at a desk for 7 hours a day. I have tried to accept it but find it difficult. Is the next step to accept the resistance to the job?
Q: "Hello Adam, thank you for a wonderful website. I have always been a person who gets attached to people easily. I then tend to focus more on them than myself. This has made me a very anxious person. What are your thoughts on attachment and how can I focus on my life more then others? Thanks for your help."
There is a voice in the head which speaks, which goes over all of this again and again and gets nowhere, and you think that the voice is who you are. But you can hear the voice. Just hear the voice, that’s all you have to do. You don’t need to judge it or try to break away from it. Just hear it if it speaks...
Sometimes when people are seeing spirit entities when they don't even want to, their energy is not fully grounded, not connected to the earth. So they start to go off, uncontrolled, into other planes. Do you feel as if you get spaced-out quite easily, as if your attention is very high up, even above your head? Grounding, or earthing, brings the energy back down...